Birthday Girl

Dear Reader,











I'm 18 today. I feel so...young. And unprepared for life. School is a waste of time; it doesn't prepare you for anything. After about 10 years of being spoonfed pretty much everything, you're suddenly expected to fend for yourself in the 'real world'. You're left to battle the raging seas of life, with nothing but your inexperience and all the useless information you've accumulated throughout your years of 'education' to guide you.

There's definitely something wrong with the Malaysian education system.



But I digress. I'm forgetting something. I am not alone. I am not navigating the twisted labyrinth of the adult world without a road map; I have the Ultimate Road Map. I have God on my side.



No, don't roll your eyes at me, my sceptical reader. God really does have all the answers; we just never bother to ask Him for them.



So, my insecurities aside...guess what I got for my birthday present? A shopping trip! [Yay!] Unfortunately, I didn't get to buy any new books. Another day, perhaps. However, I did manage to buy not one, but two new articles of clothing. One shirt and one dress. I also bought some shoes...a pair of black ballerina flats, with a little flower-bow-thingy on the front.



Have I mentioned my love for [obsession with] shoes? Oh...well, in that case: I absolutely love [am obsessed with] shoes! There, I mentioned it. It's really wonderful how a nice pair of shoes can make one forget about one's troubles, isn't it? At least, for a while.



If I had my way, I'd take a whole year off before continuing my education, and do things I would never have had the time or the motivation to do otherwise. Like remodel my room, or take up pottery, or learn how to bake cupcakes, or something.



But what I'm really worried about is the total and complete disappointment I'll face this March, when my SPM results come out. SPM is The Big Exam that every student in Malaysia has to face before they graduate. The one that decides your future. The one that determines whether you are smart and hardworking, or if a career in the academic field just isn't the best idea for you.



I am a smart person. [And modest, don't forget modest!] But I am also an extremely lazy person. I have no stamina whatsoever when it comes to studying. I'll read one page, then fall asleep at my desk. Often, I'll just skip the reading and go straight to the sleeping part, for convenience's sake. I have recently discovered a shocking truth: if you don't bother to study, you won't get good marks. Who knew?



*sigh* All I can do is hope, I guess.



Anyway, I think I've wasted enough of your time, dear reader, with my little cyber-rant. So I'll just say goodbye, adieu, until we meet again...etc, etc.













Yours,







Figgy the Legal Adult